well i don’t really blog
but i have to say that the light right now in the mid-afternoon rain is really good.
it’s been a long time since i was as sad as i once was but it’s been a short time, days maybe, weeks barely, since i had one of those brief, intense migraines of sadness and went a little bit blind, or light-sensitive, and had to close my eyes until the brain pain ebbed. and that short time has been a longer time than it’s been, for a long time, in between sadness migraines. it’s possible that this has something to do with liquids, fluidity, superfluity, something to do with blood between the legs and maybe also something to do with the rain coming finally, making it winter (seasonally affective in reverse? sad in the summer, happy in the winter?).
so i’m lucky.
mostly here to share this technique: the basketball of guilt.
gather it up (the guilt, or the things causing it, or the sadness if you’re very good at the technique). hold it to your chest, like a basketball. do you remember being taught how to throw a basketball when you were little? your bent arms make two triangles, one on either side, with the basketball in the middle. then you are kind of doing a pushup, and you shoot the basketball away from your tiny kid body. so you take your basketball of guilt, or sadness, and you shoot it away from your body like that. swoosh!
